forgetmyname

lovexplosion @ 2004-09-20T18:20:00

2004-09-21T01:26:12Z

so, school started two weeks ago. this year seems like its going to be easy and its going to go by wicked fast. tomorrow i'm going to dan's show, friday is leftover crack, hopefully in three weeks i'll be able to go down to flordia for 4 days with rachael to visit my dad and go to universal studio's haunted shit. oh and terrys been talking about going to poughkipsee or whatever to see straylight run, i hope i'll be bale to go with him. i love terry. i'm so excited about halloween. its my favorite holiday. we have to think of something really good for the shaker senior halloween thing. me and rachael were thinking about just having a whole crapload of people dress up as jesus but her mom doesn't think they'd let us or something. i don't know haha. i miss dan. maybe i should start updating this thing more often. maybe only when i get desperately bored.

yeah, life's pretty good.
<3

lovexplosion @ 2004-09-20T17:57:00

2004-09-21T00:59:15Z

if somebody could tell me how to get rid of that frickin advertisment banner thingie or how to move it out of the way, i would greatly appreciate it.

yeahh i haven't written in here in a while

2004-04-06T22:16:16Z

01: grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. write down what it says: "with a mouse?"

02: stretch your left arm out as far as you can. what do you touch first? my laptop mouse

03: what is the last thing you watched on tv? moulin rouge

04: WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what time it is: 5:40ish?

05: now look at the clock, what is the actual time?: 5:54

06: with the exception of the computer, what can you hear?: my laptCELLPHONE hold peas

07: when did you last step outside? to let my puppie out

08: before you came to this website, what did you look at? my friend's page

09: what are you wearing? one blue sock, one pink sock, navy blue cords, a navy/torquoise striped shirt, brand new hoodie

10: did you dream last night? yes i did. about what? i'm not telling youu.

11: when did you last laugh? i don't remember laughing today heh

12: what is on the walls of the room you are in?
-red black grey and white paint [der]
-posters = rancid, give em the boot 2, stabbed in the face, piebald, further seems forever/movie life/autopilot off/anberlin, sublime, brad nowell, hanson, a signed brand new poster, weezer
-pictures of me and billy from chuck e cheese
-boys night out tickets >:[
-boys night out stickers
-reggie and the full effect vip pass
-postcard rachael sent me from new jersey last summer
-a picture of my name ted drew last summer
-public assex sticker
-a snapple cap from the first stabbed in the face show that says "the tallest man was 8 ft 11 inches"
-john wayne clock
-the picture matty made me for christmas a few years ago
-star shaped christmas lights
-two paintings i did
-limited editon sublime picture record
-phone
-thermometer

13: seen anything weird lately? YO FACEE

14: what do you think of this quiz? i'm bored

15: what is the last film you saw? moulin rouge with rachael last night and the butterfly effect in theaters

16: if you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first? i'd put a few million in the bank for my brother, i'd buy my grandparents a new house in flordia and in maine, and then i'd built the house me and rachael are designing.

17: tell me something about you that i don't know: i don't think you know much about me, i'm sorry survey but you really don't have a thought process. you just ask pointless questions that people don't care about but will maybe eventually read if they ever get as bored as i am right now. but i bet you don't know that my feet are freezing and i'm so lonely right now i think i'm about to explode.

18: if you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do? everyone to get along and fucking kill war fuck that shit yo

19: do you like to dance? i prefer to dance alone. and i say dancee if you want too don't ignore the sounnd! yes i love to dance.

20: george bush; is he a power-crazy nutcase or some one who is finally doing something that has needed to be done for years? he needs to learn some grammer before i decide on that one.

21: imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her? amelia or chelsea.. i think

21: Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him? brandon or miguel or i don't know i think about names i love all the time but when it comes down to writing them down for surveys i always forget

22: would you ever consider living abroad? only if i would get a fancy accent.

lovexplosion @ 2004-03-02T20:56:00

2004-03-03T01:59:10Z

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lovexplosion @ 2004-02-29T10:43:00

2004-02-29T15:49:07Z

Wow, good job. Alkaline Trio is a wonderful band,
and you should be proud that you know so much
about them.

Are You A Hardcore Alkaline Trio Fan?
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FUCK YEAAAA <3

lovexplosion @ 2004-02-29T04:00:00

2004-02-29T09:03:29Z

♥Lovexplosion and ♥Nevermine

Will conceive twenty-eight thousand genius kids.
Resent having to hug each other when the time is right.
Are like two peas in a pod, but not genetically.

Orchestrated by ianiceboy

hah.. this is so fun. i think i've done everyone i know haha maybe i should go to bed...

lovexplosion @ 2004-02-21T22:56:00

2004-02-22T04:18:37Z

last cigarette: never
last car ride: around 4
last kiss: dan murphy
last good cry: laughing so hard last night
last library book checked out: i haven't been to the library in forever, i buy books.
last movie seen: parts of just married. ashton kutcher mm<3
last book read: maybe tomorrow
last cuss word uttered: BULLSHIT! ..i was playing it with my grandpa.
last beverage drank: citrus pop
last food consumed: burger king's veggie burger mmm
last phone call: rachael
last tv show watched: futurama
last time showered: few hours ago
last shoes worn: lime green & yellow sauconys
last cd played: hanson - three car garage. its true.
last item bought: weed
last downloaded: coheed and cambria - my robot
last annoyance: still sitting here
last disappointment: not going midnight bowling
last soda drank: citrus pop
last thing written: a letter to my brother
last key used: the down arrow
last word spoken: bye
last sleep: i fell asleep in the shower earlier
last im: the amazing jay reach.
last sexual fantasy: half hour ago or so?
last weird encounter: i don't remember i haven't been around any weird encounter situations lately..
last ice cream eaten: scooper bowl sunday haha
last time amused: my grandma talking in her sleep and smacking my grandpa and telling him to shut up while we were next to her playing war hahah
last time wanting to die: oh how about now.
last time in love: go away i don't want to talk to you anymore fuckin serve ayeee
last time hugged: eh a while ago by my papa.
last time scolded: i don't remember.. probably when my grandma pulled over the car because i was chewing on a toothpick. she wouldn't go again until i took it out of my mouth because people would think i was a "hick". hah. riiight..
last time resentful: now
last chair sat in: the one i'm sitting in right now..
last lipstick used: i don't use lipstick but it was probably red
last underwear worn: red with black polka dots and lace
last bra worn: blueyelloworangegreenwhitepurplepinktorquious striped. its real pretty.
last shirt worn: yellow bethlehem world cup shirt and black and white striped sweater
last time dancing: i'm always dancing
last poster looked at: this question made me look up at my brad nowell poster on the back of my door
last show attended: close to home, the velcro love machine, spark plugs, public access, swindle epi
last webpage visited: before deadjournal it was ebaumsworld.com

eh

2004-02-21T21:56:32Z

i miss you.

lovexplosion @ 2004-02-17T11:02:00

2004-02-18T16:05:56Z

i fucking hate this song. i forgot it existed and i wish it stayed that way. fuckyoufuckyoufckyoulskdlfj;aksgfj

lovexplosion @ 2004-02-17T01:35:00

2004-02-17T06:41:50Z

goddamnit why does the fucking nine always get in the wwaay goodddddddddamn

anarkeyboard

unblock me ass

2004-02-17T02:12:22Z

no i'm not going to go out with him, hes one of my best friends.. thats it. thankyouverymuch.

just in case you were wondering.. or something.

lovexplosion @ 2004-02-16T17:57:00

2004-02-16T23:10:58Z

so, valentine's day wasn't all too bad.
i went shopping with my grandma for a few hours
and then got ready for the show at new age
i must say, it was one of the most fun shows i've been too in a while
there were a lot of people there i haven't seen in a while
like nicole and matty and ian and so on and so forth
mike wasn't there =O( my valentine got in a car accident on the way over aghh
i'm glad hes okay though.
umum the velcro love machine are amazing
and close to home did good
i throughly enjoyed swindle epi's cover of TNT
and public access' cover of hey ya made my night
i danced a lot. a lot. and it was good.
went back to rachael's house and went to sleep i think
i don't remember haha
yesterday was a blur, mad drugs and mad beers yo
it took me until the second time around to realize that space ghost was on for like two hours last night haha woopsies
we made up an amazing song.
yeah, thats right, amazing.
now its monday and i'm home and i have nothing to do for the rest of the night
i think tomorrow i might be hanging out with mike
which will be awesome i haven't seen him in a while
thankyouverymuchseatbelts.

will you be my valentine if i'm a world away

2004-02-14T17:21:20Z

last night went to the show at new age
with rachaelkaylakaitlinjillianbobjeffheathryan
terry was there too :D
umum there was a really good band from somewhere else in new york
i forgot to pay attention to the name or location though hah
firefighters were goood i like them a lot
uhh playing the victim.. adam cooney got wicked fuckin fat hahah
hes gona be one of those gay fat bald guys that goes to hardcore shows and thinks they're hot shit when hes 30
aaaanywho..
i fell asleep upside down on one of the couches and woke up with rachael asleep next to me when sights unseen were playing
practically everyone had disappeared from when i went to sleep it was so confusing when i woke up
got home around 12:30ish and went to sleep i was so tired

today i was supposed to go get hanson tickets with erica but her mom's friend went and got them eee i'm so so so sooo excited you have no idea i love hanson and erica and lena and its gona be like old times and ohh man.

tonight, i guess i'm going to the show at new age with a bunch of people. i'll get to see mike ruggaber and nicole and it'll be amazing.

so happy valentine's day.
i hope the suns out in new york.
i hope she bought you roses.
i hope she bought you roses.

FUCK YEAH!!!!

2004-02-12T23:20:58Z

WHO GETS TO SEE HANSON FOR THE SECOND TIME IN THE LAST 6 MONTHS?!?!

THIS GIRL RIGHT HERE. OHHHH YEAH.

HANSON
March 11th, 2004
Northern Lights
20$

me and erica are going to get tickets for us & lena saturday morning. holy shit i'm so happy!!

HOLY MOLEY!!!

2004-02-12T22:05:57Z

like a cancer: i woke up with a baby mole on me this morning
XxAnimosity22xX: what
XxAnimosity22xX: lol
like a cancer: haha it was kinda odd
XxAnimosity22xX: what do you mean
like a cancer: i don't know where it went
like a cancer: a mole
like a cancer: you know
XxAnimosity22xX: a real one?
like a cancer: those things that dig holes in the ground
XxAnimosity22xX: ew
like a cancer: ew?!!?
like a cancer: its ADORABLE
like a cancer: but i don't know where it went
XxAnimosity22xX: oh
XxAnimosity22xX: lol
like a cancer: i feel so bad for it
like a cancer: its blind so it has no idea whats going on
like a cancer: and it was bumping into everything
like a cancer: and squeeking everytime it ran into something lol
like a cancer: it reminded me of myself :)
XxAnimosity22xX: lol
like a cancer: but yeah i don't know where it went
XxAnimosity22xX: how big was it
like a cancer: ------------------------------------------- bout that big
XxAnimosity22xX: oh
like a cancer: it was a baby obviously
like a cancer: cause moles get much bigger.
like a cancer: it looked like a little mouse
XxAnimosity22xX: and you woke up with this on you?
XxAnimosity22xX: and you're okay with that..?
XxAnimosity22xX: lol
like a cancer: cept a shorter tail and its ears are little and close to its head and its got squinty eyeballs because it is blind. and a squished-er in nose than mouses.
like a cancer: well i wasn't okay with it but i didn't flip out and i'm not all grossed out
like a cancer: it was kind of startling
XxAnimosity22xX: yeah
like a cancer: i thought the blanket was rubbing up against me weird
like a cancer: so i went to go brush it off
like a cancer: and when it turned out to be something fuzzy that ran away and squeeked
like a cancer: lol
XxAnimosity22xX: lol
like a cancer: yeah i was like uhh what the fuck is that and i threw my blankets off of me
like a cancer: which took a lot of effort might i add they're very heavy cause i sleep with like.. 15 on me
XxAnimosity22xX: lol
like a cancer: then i shook all my blankets one by one and put them on my bed and went back to sleep
like a cancer: and then it started crawling up my leg and i was like dude whatever
like a cancer: and it went away
like a cancer: and then it was time to get up for school and it kept running back and forth
like a cancer: adn i felt weird going "excuse me mr. mole but could you leave"
like a cancer: so i named it :)
XxAnimosity22xX: what did you name it
like a cancer: rupert.
XxAnimosity22xX: lol
like a cancer: so everytime i was like.. "excuse me mr.rupert, but this is not your room you need to leave"
like a cancer: he'd run away :(
XxAnimosity22xX: is he still in your room
like a cancer: i'm not sure
like a cancer: i haven't heard him since i got home
like a cancer: but he could be in my closet
like a cancer: which i'm hoping hes not
like a cancer: cause that means my grandpa will want to go in there
like a cancer: and i have like..a looot of big empty bottles
XxAnimosity22xX: lol
like a cancer: i miss him.
like a cancer: i want to keep him
like a cancer: but i do not think that is allowed
XxAnimosity22xX: no cause
XxAnimosity22xX: they're dirty
XxAnimosity22xX: lol
like a cancer: psh i don't know what you're talkin about
like a cancer: he looked clean to me
XxAnimosity22xX: lol
like a cancer: but i don't have any worms to feed him
like a cancer: so i don't think i could keep him

lovexplosion @ 2004-02-11T21:25:00

2004-02-12T02:58:12Z

1)Using band names, spell out your first name:

jimmy eat world
outkast
death cab for cutie
i hate myself

2) Have you ever had a song written about you? i missed you tonight and jodie without the e :]

3) What song makes you cry? goodnight starlight by dawson high, and autumn's monologue/the fiction we live by from autumn to ashes. annd glycerine by bush. theres a lot more but those are the ones i can think of right now heh i'm gay

4) What song makes you happy? shake ya ass - mystikal, hey ya - outkast, philosophy - ben folds five, the shower scene - brand new, a praise chorus - jimmy eat world, dancing with myself - billy idol, where we breathe - boys night out.. yeah theres a lot haha

5) What do you like to listen to before bed? explosions in the sky

6) Name a song by Coal Chamber: big truck or something like that

7) Who was/were your idol/s when you were younger? gwen stefani haha

8) First album you ever bought? no doubt's tragic kingdom, green day's dookie, and the offspring's smash

9) Name a song that reminds you of someone and why:
a lot of songs remind me of rachael but i pick the piano song by the juliana theory cause if you listen to the lyrics it fits good. magic chicken reminds me of kaitlin cause shes a one winged chicken. fred astair byyy lbc reminds me of kayla. anything by against me! reminds me of people i know in ballston spa.. i don't know why, maybe it was all those car trips to ballston spa listening to them. soul to keep by matt skiba reminds me of dan. ohh! pints of guines make you strong reminds me of rachael cause its our drinking song haha. umum october nights by yellowcard and so impossible by dashboard remind me of joey. love by reggie and the full effect and goodnight starlight by dawson high reminds me of ted. yeah i think thats enough typing

a p p e a r a n c e
HEIGHT: 5'9"ish
HAIR COLOR: blackdarkbrownblonde.. the roots are growing in
EYE COLOR: blueish greyish greenish
PIERCINGS: 0g in both ears, 2 in my right ear
TATTOOS: not for another two months

r i g h t n o w
WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING?: i'm not wearing pants i'm wearing a skirt
WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO?: cap'n jazz's cover of take on me<333 i love this song

f a v o r i t e s
TV SHOW: home movies family guy futurama
CONDITIONER: herbal essences
BOOK: you remind me of you
MAGAZINE: AP
NON-ALCOHOLIC DRINK: water and apple juice and orange soda
ALCOHOLIC DRINK: parrot bay & orange juice or kaluha [sp?] and milk mm.
THING TO DO ON THE WEEKEND: go to shows and rachael's

BAND OR GROUP or SINGER or RAPPER:
band: brand new or explosions in the sky or boys night out or against me! ..its hard to chose just one
group: hanson of course
singer: jesse lacey or matt skiba orr conor oberst
rapper: outkast

h a v e y o u
BROKEN THE LAW: yes
A PRANK PHONE CALL: i don't remember
EVER TIPPED OVER A PORTA POTTY: haha almost
Use youR PARENTS' CREDIT CARD BEFORE: yesp
SKIPPED SCHOOL BEFORE: yeap
FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: haha all the time
BEEN IN A SCHOOL PLAY: yes! i was the lead in the christmas play in 2nd grade. mama bear. and i had to sing a solo. it was so scary.
LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: anytime<3

l o v e
GIRLFRIEND/BOYFRIEND: hah right
CURRENT CRUSH: shish i don't have a chance
YOUR GREATEST REGRET: ohh i have a lot but i'd have to pick adam cooney

r a n d o m
DO YOU HAVE A JOB: i'm workin on it
YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW: the get up kids - something to write home about [the best album ever], boys night out - make yourself sick, weezer - green album, alkaline trio mix, explosions in the sky mix, dashboard - so impossible, against me! - as the eternal cowboy and reinventing axl rose.
IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?: tickle me pink :]
WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET?: new getup kids cd march 3rd i can't wait oh man

w h e n / w h a t w a s t h e l a s t
TIME YOU CRIED?: last night
YOU GOT A REAL LETTER?: a month or so ago from my pen pal joey colquhoun :]
YOU GOT E-MAIL: uhh a journal comment about a half hour ago
THING YOU PURCHASED: these real pretty underwear, valentines day cards, a hair band, and those magnetic word things.. they look like candy hearts

y o u r t h o u g h t s o n
ABORTION: murderer
SPICE GIRLS: DANCE PARTIES FUCK YEAH!
DREAMS: i usually don't remember them but i had a fucked up one last night

yeas i stole that from rachael. i'm so bored. ahh. someone go shopping with me tomorrow mmm.

lovexplosion @ 2004-02-11T17:48:00

2004-02-11T22:56:15Z

yeah so, it was pretty much all set to see bright eyes in providence in two weeks with rachael as an early birthday present. turns out it sold out in the last few days. fuck that

maybe if she wants to we can go see death cab for cutie in april. they'd be pretty neat to see. blaaaah.

[ps] you're hot.

2004-02-08T19:29:44Z

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friday night i went to rockets & bluelights with rachael and kayla and it was awesome. i love them a looot. there was a bunch of people there i knew so it was fun. we went back to rachael's and had a dance party & talked on the phone with cody/JOEY!! mmm. i like dance parties :]

saturday we all just kinda farted around all day. terry came over, me rachael & mumma went to salvation army, burger king's vegie burger mmm<3, and then me rachael & kayla went to the sights unseen/after the fall show. there was lots of people there that i didn't think would be like kaitlin and jillian! after the show we came back here and did a whole lot of not much. woke up & took a lot of pictures. kayla left and rachael went to sleep and i spent about an hour resizing all the pictures from this weekend.. which most of them are located in my photojournal. now nobody can bitch at me because theres about 50 pictures to look at to make up for lost time haha. <lj-user = "xxcrossmyheart">

ahh well i got about an hour of sleep last night and i don't feel like writing anymore. one more week of school before winter break. helllllllll yeah<33 who wants to make plans? :]

i love this song so much.

2004-02-07T08:50:09Z

lovexplosion @ 2004-02-06T11:54:00

2004-02-06T17:02:07Z

mm anyone want to go midnight bowling saturday night? i miss when we used to go every weekend =O(

lovexplosion @ 2004-02-06T11:21:00

2004-02-06T16:29:20Z

new layout mmhm. i was bored. i do not like that banner.

today = no school due to snow. i love you snow.

tonight = rockets and bluelights show hopefully if my grandpa will give me a ridee.

do something with me<3

lovexplosion @ 2004-02-05T18:08:00

2004-02-05T23:15:46Z

what the SHIT
my brothers in second grade and hes doing trig and geometery. what the fuck is that?? seriously. hes in SECOND GRADE. i was doing that shit earlier this year. whoa i'm pissed. that poor kid =(

today was my favorite kind of day.

2004-02-05T01:03:42Z

happy birthday erica♥!

double date 518

2004-01-31T05:29:58Z

today:
spanish writing and reading midterm
homee
cleaned my room
took a shower
ryan picked me up and we went to friendlys with terry and angelina
we had a very flamboyant waiter
discovered that terry does not like marshmellow sauce or nuts
afterwards we went to rachael's and watched tv for a while
ryan terry and angelina left around 6
i left around 8 cause nicole was supposed to sleep over but she never called
so terry picked me up around 10:30 and brought me back to rachael's
nowww we're listening to josh play guitar lalala
mmm do something with me tomorrow<33

lovexplosion @ 2004-01-30T13:45:00

2004-01-30T18:52:34Z

mmm mashed potatoes sex.